I'll try to answer some of the questions/points you raise, Crowie.
I'm not sure what is desperate about wanting to spend time again with someone whose company you've enjoyed in the past. That said there are a lot of modifiers in your description of her...fairly attractive, reasonably intelligent, had a reasonably good time. So maybe you are calling yourself desperate because you are not sure if you actually are that interested in her but you still want to give it another try. Well, that's ok too, she sounds like someone worth at least one more date.
I'll put it this way: I'm no Adonis. I'm short, I'm overweight (something I'm trying to work on), and I'm a geek. Given those things, the expectation would be that I would have to settle for someone "plain" or "average" (looks and/or intelligence) or some such thing. This woman is attractive to me, but she's not a beauty queen. She can hold her own in a conversation or discussion, but her reaction to my job description was wide-eyed and seemed to say "What am I doing with this geek?". Maybe I'm over-interpreting that part, but that was the look on her face. The thing is that she has been one of two women to show any actual interest in me in the last two years, and I'm starting to have my doubts about my abilities to maintain a LTR with anyone.
(Yes, I know that this is defeatist, self-sabotage, etc. Knowing those things still don't help me overcome some of the self-doubt, and I'm still trying to convince myself that I deserve someone this nice.)
I am also not sure what you mean by "restart something"--you mean go on a date right? In that case, surely it is simply a question of whether both of you have time to meet this weekend, no?
Yes, it should be that simple, but I keep telling myself all those stupid, defeatist things.
By the way, I'm not sure why because she had a "weirder" schedule than you that means she "got to determine when we met." Surely in the end you met at a time that worked for both of you? And what is the significance of her getting your phone number--does this mean you don't have hers?
Her work schedule is much fuller than mine, and thus, she calls me and says "I'm free next Saturday. Do you wanna go out?" rather than me doing the calling and setting things up. Maybe this is just me getting over my chauvinist ideas of how this is supposed to work. It's nice, but it feels strange.
On preview: maybe merce's instincts are right. I don't remember this woman so I might not be a good judge of it.
Very possibly. She hasn't played games with me, stood me up, etc., but it doesn't mean she couldn't. I think I'm afraid/scared/nervous because I entered a very deep "lonely phase" after getting out of the hospital two months ago. I'm hoping that something will come from this, but I'm so scared that nothing will, leaving me lonely again.
I think I need to ask out the nurse (technician, maybe?) at the cardiologist's office that I see once a week, just to find out if something is really possible with her.