I am finally tapped in enough to the local network to find a shrink who treats bipolar and doesn't believe in LGBT conversion therapy. I am going to try and call Monday. (I hate phones). I've been suspicious my meds mix isn't quite right for a couple months, and my GP will only write refills for stable treatments.
Wow, britmom and dr_evil, my thoughts and prayers with you both. I think you're right, latico, that it's the people who have suffered and know what depression is like that give the most help.
I saw my doctor yesterday and I'm starting on Zoloft. I didn't realize how far gone I was until we went through the screening checklist--way more yeses than I would have thought.
Oh, and dr_evil, amen to the good night's sleep. I seem to get sent into a tailspin every time I travel. It always works out that when I'm coming back, I've had a short night. Like last week. I missed about three hours of sleep, didn't catch up on the plane, then by the time I got to my car I was on the verge of collapse. Thankfully, I have a good friend who talked me through it and got me out of that particular valley.
This really resonated. I read your post and then looked at an entry checklist myself. I think I've been overestimating my current coping level