I’m thinking of applying for a tenure-track position. I’ve been adjunct for 10 years and have been quite satisfied. But I made the cardinal mistake of looking at job listings recently, and now I can’t get one out of my mind.
It is the perfect job for me, with my qualifications and experience. It wouldn’t entail moving, though it isn’t at my current institution. The department is one that I could be a positive part of.
So what’s the problem you say? The thing is, I’m terrified. I’ve gotten comfortable where I am. I’m good at my job, know where I fit in, and even know the avenues available to push myself a bit. I’m scared to death of facing a hiring committee. I’m scared of being the low woman on the totem pole, botching the acronyms at an important meeting.
I’m not sure what I’ll do. Being scared can be a good thing; most positive experiences have a little risk involved. There’s certainly no guarantee of getting hired or even getting an interview, though now maybe I can add fear of rejection to my list.
I’ll keep you posted on what happens. In the meantime, I welcome your advice about taking that step from comfortable adjunct to potential full-time faculty.

